Mayo Cont.

UGH! I dont even know where to begin..................................I saw my Cf doctor and things are NOT good. My lung function has plummeted in the last 6 months. Most of you already know that i have been feeling like shit and have been very run down. But im talking serious like from 6 mo ago my volume was 2.4, today was 1.7 We are talking 50th percentile for lung function. around 40% is when they start talking about transplants. My doc was like Teri this isnt looking good. It seriously took everything in me to not start balling right there. He said its HOSPITAL time......................I begged for something else. He got on the phone and talked the guy who knows everything about medicine and mixing them and such. He is starting me on Zyvox super super powerful antibiotic and Prednisone to open up the air ways. If this doesnt do the trick with in 2 weeks off to the HOSPITAL i go. All i could think about was Ari, and how there is no way im about to give up. This lil love bug needs a mommy to be healthy. After figuring out what we were going to do with me. My doc pulled me aside and said your daughter needs a mom who is healthy because if your not you cant take care of her. God it hit me so hard. Duh as a mom i know this, but for my doc to say it it really STUNG. After that appointment i filled out some paper work at my other ones and left. i didnt even care what the other 2 docs had to say about my thyroid or sinuses.

My mind was made up and all i wanted was to see my baby. I sped all the way home making it in an hr and 15 mins. It took me half an hour just to get my thoughts together to tell Eric the news. Then of course he calls me. ha i cried and cried to him. He of all people know the TRUE pain of what my disease really is. How it really affects me. There are few people that really know what my life is all about. I can be happy when i need to be, but he see's behind all that and knows that my body is hurting. He is truly a blessing in my life, he is the half that makes me whole. Sappy but true.